day 120

i have lost

the connection,

fractured

the innocence,

and severed

the poisonous stories

and the formidable beams,

but

radiant voices

still

break

in the mornings,

the soft, slow, creeping mornings

break

and take

me back

to the disillusionment of dreams,

and how the ocean took me in

(my sweet Virginia sky)

then, missed you,

missed me,

somehow.

this is all

i have lost.

day 119

ain't feelin' too good

day 118

today started out REALLY AWESOME* but my health has been steadily declining all night

i'm almost certain i have meningitis**, so IF i wake up in the morning, i'll probably be mentally handicapped

so this might be the last day of my 365 day project, in which case it would become a 118 day project

*including watching skins, drinking a milkshake, and wheeling my pug up the street in my nephew's stroller

**could also just be a cold or influenza

day 117

i just came home from an unsuccessful attempt at having band practice to THIS on fb:::

a picture resurfaced from the depths of paula's harddrive that makes me look cooler than i actually am. i mean i AM going to see conan o'brien right here

and i really cannot wait to go back to california.

ALSO for your viewing pleasure:

a scrumptious animal cell cake!

i'm seriously considering a career in cake photography

day 116

"the urge to reach"

it's time for another edition of.....

NEW ART IN MY ROOM

if you can't tell by my very professional mac photobooth photo, it's a shadow box with a 3-d paper chow

umm tonight my boyfriend and i made boca burgers with ALMOND cheese

also lately i've been trying to eat my cereal with ALMOND milk

also every morning i put on some delicious smelling ALMOND hand lotion

i love almonds, i call them the nut of life*

just thought i should mention

they're so yummmy and versatile

*i just made that up just now

day 115

this is my big poodle, garp

i was looking through old pictures (always both comforting and detrimental to my well-being) and found some of him when he was very small and as he was growing

LOOK HOW TINY aw aw aw little poodle:

and then some of toddler garp and me, hanging out in my living room and at the park:

day 114

osiris^^

EVERYONE LOVES HIM

lately i've been solidifying my role as ultimate prankster

with craigslist postings for 3 of my friends*

and now this HILARIOUS workplace prank (more details later, maybe, once its been revealed to my coworkers who religiously check this blog every night, surely)

WHAT WILL I THINK OF NEXT???

*as seen here, here and here

day 113

and beneath the sheets of hardened skin, there are layers of memories, disturbing the surface so slightly that a single scratch can release thousands of tiny disillusioned dreams

all i did today was basically just go treasure-hunting TO NO AVAIL

oh also eat deep-fried oreos

they fall under the category of "ew/mmm"

day 112

"remember, remember, this is now, and now, and now. live it, feel it, cling to it. i want to become acutely aware of all i've taken for granted."

day 111

hopefully there will be weekly pictures of me on rollerblades

i'm so graceful and poised, it's a wonder i didn't pick up this hobby sooner!

also, no need to compliment me

i already know this is the best editing job i've ever done

day 110

and i write a letter from a one-way train
but i don't think you'll read it at all

day 109

"do it like

do it like

do it like

do it like

do it like

do it like

do it like

do it like

do it like we used to,

like we used to do"

ehhhhhhhhh uhhhhhhhh ummm there will be no more weekly themes

here is my really great project that i finished this afternoon:

ART EDUCATION IS THE BEST CLASS EVER

day 108

"i'm caught in an endless dream"

Top 11 Songs by Ryan Adams (also Ryan Adams and the Cardinals):

11. La Cienega Just Smiled

10. Touch, Feel, and Lose

9. Blue Hotel

8. Oh My Sweet Carolina

7. Oh My God, Whatever, Etc.

6. So Alive

5. Avalanche

4. Elizabeth, You Were Born to Play that Part

3. I Taught Myself How to Grow Old

2. The Sun Also Sets

1. Come Pick Me Up

day 107

"ten thousand words swarm 'round my head

ten million more written in books beneath my bed"

The Top 11 Songs by The Avett Brothers:

11. Left on Laura, Left on Lisa

10. Slight Figure of Speech

9. Incomplete and Insecure

8. Head Full of Doubt/Road Full of Promise

7. Talk on Indolence

6. The Weight of Lies

5. Laundry Room

4. Ten Thousand Words

3. If It's the Beaches

2. The Ballad of Love and Hate

1. November Blue

honorable mentions: Distraction #74, I and Love and You, Murder in the City Shame and Ill with Want

(these lists have been verrry hard to narrow down to 11)

a memorandum about The Avett Brothers:

november blue was my immediate favorite song on the first mix cd my boyfriend ever made for me over a year ago

ever since then, the avett brothers have become the music i listen to when i need inspiration for forgiveness and for a little reminder to spend my time loving rather than fighting

also *very interesting fact* one of my strongest recent memories is listening to the album I and Love and You while driving across laurel canyon when i lived in california

assuming i live until june 12, i'll be seeing them at bonnaroo this year mmmmmmmm

hilarious/awkward video for slight figure of speech

and a link to their cellist's food blog that i sometimes like to read

day 106

"a burning awareness of the scraps left untouched"

tonight i'll be seeing my dear old friend mitchell marcus moehring and we'll probably just have a grand time catching up and being best friends

and here's something swell:

The Top 11 Songs by Leonard Cohen:

11. Hey, That's No Way to Say Goodbye

10. Everybody Knows

9. Who By Fire

8. One of Us Cannot Be Wrong

7. A Thousand Kisses Deep

6. Joan of Arc

5. Chelsea Hotel No. 2

4. If It Be Your Will

3. Hallelujah

2. Anthem

1. Suzanne

day 105

"this story's old but it goes on and on until we disappear"

Top 11 Songs by Brand New:

11. Soco Amaretto Lime

10. Sic Transit Gloria... Glory Fades

9. Millstone

8. Untitled 09

7. I Will Play My Game Beneath the Spin Light

6. Limousine

5. Jesus Christ

4. Me vs. Maradona vs. Elvis

3. The Boy Who Blocked His Own Shot

2. Untitled 01

1. Play Crack the Sky

also, if i had any idea how to put an mp3 file on here, i'd share a brilliant rendition of me vs. maradona vs. elvis that i did with allison and chris a few years ago

but this will do, instead:

day 104

rollerblades ^^^

just a few facts:

at approximately 11:40 tonight will be the 98-year anniversary of the titanic hitting the iceberg

around 2:20 am it sunk completely into the atlantic ocean

and:

The Top 11 Songs by Bon Iver/Justin Vernon:

11. Hazelton

10. Creature Fear

9. Beach Baby

8. Song for a Lover of Long Ago

7. Blindsided

6. Re: Stacks

5. Flume

4. Skinny Love

3. Blood Bank

2. For Emma

1. The Wolves (Act 1 and 2)

(side note:

my dad introduced me to bon iver)

day 103

i just got back from kelly's fancy birthday dinner

mmm

and it took me forever to decide>>>

The Top 11 Songs by Jimmy Eat World

11. Hear You Me

10. A Sunday

9. Disintegration

8. Just Watch the Fireworks

7. Chase This Light

6. Kill

5. Your House 2007

4. Goodbye Sky Harbor

3. Dizzy

2. 23

1. Table for Glasses

honorable mentions: Take 'Em As They Come and Beautiful Is

day 102

OH HEY, just making a tree for homework

you know, making something out of nothing, that sort of thing

IT'S TIME FOR A NEW WEEK

everyday this week, monday-sunday (because i like to start on mondays because sundays are my favorite day*) i'll be sharing my top 11 songs from musicians that are good (in my factual opinion) because of the following reasons:

1. i like making lists (even THIS RIGHT HERE is a list!!)

2. i like ranking things in order

3. i like songs

so let's begin with my favorite band

(the format, of course)

Lizzie's The Ultimate Top 11 Songs by The Format:

11. Faith in Fast Cars

10. A Mess To Be Made

9. Snails

8. At the Wake

7. Matches

6. On Your Porch

5. Oceans

4. Dog Problems

3. Threes

2. If Work Permits

1. Swans

ps: swans is also in my top 5 favorite songs OF ALL TIME

*even though i usually don't follow the save-the-best-for-last mentality, because i always think i'm going to die before i get to the best

day 101

so as far as this week's theme goes (see day 95) i'd say it was a complete failure.

it seems i set unreachable goals for myself on purpose

and yes, i HAVE overanalyzed that aspect of my personality

and yes, i DID buy rollerblades today

and yes, i HAVE started my sculpture of the giving tree for my class

and yes, my obsession with the titanic IS growing exponentially, especially since 98 years ago TODAY the titanic was on its second day at sea!!!!!

and that is all

happy 101 :o)

day 100

day 100 was a good, good day

day 99

here's the thing:

i had every intention of buying rollerblades today, which is Something I've Been Meaning To Do For A Long Time (see this week's theme)

but after i tried them on, found a pair that i liked, blah blah blah

they were $64.99, and i just couldn't bring myself to do it, at least not right now.

BUT I WILL OWN A PAIR OF ROLLERBLADES IN THE NEAR FUTURE AND I WILL BE THE COOLEST GIRL IN SHREVEPORT, MAYBE EVEN IN LOUISIANA

positive news: i'm clear to register for fall classes

or perhaps that's negative news (??)

tonight, a normal friday night, i'm just going to stay here and finish watching titanic.

it's taken me four days, which isn't uncommon. i fall asleep during about 90% of movies i watch.

BUT has everyone forgotten what a brilliant film TITANIC is?!?!

i'd gladly let anyone borrow my two-tape set, if they have.

it's not only THE GREATEST LOVE STORY OF ALL TIME, but it's also very historically accurate.

i fucking love everything about this movie

day 98

silly face/silly poodle

my ambitions remain unreachable by means of my abilities

but i did start this>>>

eh

today was less than stellar

my feelings are getting hurt by the tiniest things

and i didn't feel well

wah wah wah

day 97

"i remember what i wore"

my body begins to float and

i realize that i have not

taken a breath in at least

four miles

and i wonder if there was ever

anything

that you had kept

in all those years, through the

girls with the unexpected faces

and the

weddings

and the

turmoil

and the realization that everything leaves us eventually

and whether or not we've had time to prepare for the loss

really doesn't matter

in the end

in the end,

all we have is our breathless existence

and we can never prepare for it, ever

in keeping with this week's theme, i plan to paint my owl table this evening.

day 96

tuesdays are usually my favorite day because i have class

but i did NOT have a good time in class today, not at all.

in fact this day is getting progressively shittier, and i'll attribute it to lack of sleep.

tonight i remade this bracelet that i made for the first time almost a year ago.

and then paula's dog ate it when i was in california (little creep) and i've been meaning to make a new one for a very long time.

and thanks to this week's productive theme, i finally did! WOO

it's simple, made with the classiest beads ever.

it says "we are all alive tonight," a line from a bukowski poem that i love.

"some men never

live

and some men never

die

but we are all alive

tonight"

day 95

dacoda took this picture while i was looking up interesting titanic facts. did you know tickets cost up to $100,000??? (converted to today's monetary value of course)

my titanic picture for my class:

this week's theme is Lizzie Gets Shit Done That She's Been Meaning To Do For A Long Time (LGSDTSBMTDFALT for short)

today's project....

take down posters i've had on my bedroom walls since high school (like How to Deal* and Guns n Roses**) and put up awesome things.

like Tibetan prayer flags....

peace, compassion, strength, and wisdom... HERE I COME!

also this really rad paper-twirled flamingo that my sister made in college and somehow i ended up having it. my cat knocked it down (or something) years ago and i always meant to put it back on my wall but i never did UNTIL NOW.

and lastly, the greatest poster of all time. onehundredcatsandamouse.

this used to be in my brother's room when we were little and we would always choose our favorite (duh the little guy in the middle-ish row towards the left).

due to being the greatest poster of all time, this is probably worth like over $3,000 on ebay. i wouldn't be surprised.

*a great movie actually

**interesting anecdote: when i was being interviewed for a job at hot topic in october 2005, which seems like forever ago now that i've spent almost 10 minutes trying to figure out the date, i was asked by the managers what were the last 3 cds i listened to. i remember listing guns n roses greatest hits, with pride.

day 94

this is the last day of list week (the week of lists). even though i have MANY MORE lists.

"my style icons" (a division of "things")

john galliano

betsey johnson

cowboy curtis

clarissa darling

i believe that list was made in late 2008. (it's not definitive, just a few people who always dress awesomely)

ALSO

hoppy easter from the cutest easter bunny: