day 250

i've only recently noticed how strongly my sense of smell is tied to memory

day 249

for photog class^

L8 UPLOAD SORRY BOUT DAT.

on this day, monday, september 8, 2010, i went to dallas with my mom because we like to do that quite frequently. every year my mom has this ingenious idea to buy christmas presents months in advance, then forgets what she's bought and buys too much or loses the gift. i told her to WRITE THAT SHIT DOWN MAYNE. also she buys thangz for me that i really need and won't let me have it until christmas. thx mom.

on the way back from dallas i had my own ingenious idea to try to train my eyes to see without corrective lenses, giving the passing cars a bokeh effect. LUCKILY i wasn't the one driving, because i was pretending to be driving in my mind just to see if i COULD, if ever there was an emergency situation that didn't allow me to wear glasses or contacts and i needed to drive. in conclusion, no.

i think my idea backfired entirely, because i've been having an especially difficult time focusing on numbers and letters since then.

day 248

hi.

today i did askngeofnxchomework.

i began to hate my photography class almost as much as i love it.

and i worked on this damn color wheel until my vision was blurry*:

maybe you guys won't even notice how i went out of the lines on the blue-green part.

also i dyed my hair ~auburn~

and tomorrow i thinkkk i'm going to dallas with my mom.

*not the optimal description, since my eyes are torturing me lately ALL THE TIME... steadily declining vision (even with my new-ish prescription), horrible depth-perception at night, SOMETHING STRANGE causing my left eyelid to swell slightly and cause MAXIMUM PAIN AND DISCOMFORT. i think 3 examples should be sufficient. my eyes suck.

day 247

HEY GUYZ i've just been at work for practically all day pretty much, which means i won't be able to fall asleep for another ohhhh 2.5 hours.

here's a couple of things i think i might do in the meantime:

read some fine literature

watch something good on netflix instant

hang out with esther and osiris

look up what could possibly be wrong with my left eye/eyelid because it's hurting so bad y'all

day 246

3. What’s something we can’t tell just by looking at you?

That I have many irrational fears, and deal with my anxiety in a several unusual ways. I’m afraid of everything basically. Parking garages, internal organs, large crowds of females, I could go on… Sometimes I get unexplainable fears of paper cuts, so I won’t touch paper for days without freaking out. Also, driving or riding in cars, I’m afraid I’m going to die. That one comes and goes, but it’s very debilitating.

day 245

HI. two days off work was lovely. school is peachy. i have a lot of homework for labor day weekend but i'm excited to do it because i love painting really exact lines, mixing colors, taking pictures from 1 foot off the ground, and drawing houses/other box-shaped things. i remind myself all the time not to take these classes for granted because sometimes when i HAVE to do something, i forget to enjoy it. samesies.

tonight: go swimming, wash my filthy hair, watch my netflix* because i've had it for too damn long y'all, go to sleep earrrrly while listening to something good** because my new way of falling asleep is to listen to one side of a record

*(these stars really just allow for different options of how much information from my life you're interested in. so convenient!) its a documentary called koko a talking gorilla.

**ohhh i don't know i was thinking maybe explosions in the sky or calexico

day 244

in case you guys were wondering what i got my boyfriend for his birthday today, the answer is LOTS OF GREAT STUFF and also i cooked him breakfast. and we just watched nip/tuck which is the GGGreatest tv show besides unsolved mysteries or freaks and geeks.

also a few other thangzz:

i finished my first acrylic painting of my friend dave.

well that's really all.