day 212

repeat

day 211

i wake up at 6:15

walk my dog

eat a mostly green banana

finish a book

and go back to sleep

day 210

oh hi just the reason i'm uploading this late is so i could get my film developed...

7 rolls since california and there are quite a few gems

i'm thinking about making a flickr (because duh everyone wants to see my photos, not just my mom and me) although i don't know what that entails exactly

as some of you may know, i have been cellphoneless for a few days. the port to charge my battery is ruined, so i've ordered an external battery charger but it won't get here for almost a week.

being without a cellphone is strange to say the least. i rely on that little black crackberry for so many things.

i use it as my alarm clock in the morning, and my mom coincidentally/luckily had purchased one for my birthday.. a pirate alarm clock.

now you might think, wow pirate alarm clock! that sounds great!

but NO you are wrong

i wake up to screaming!!! AHHHH! a lady screaming, and then a man (pirate) laughing. its horrible.

BACK TO WHAT'S IMPORTANT: being cellphoneless

i'm having a hard time without a handy calendar.

i always type thoughts/lists into my memopad (if you recall)and now it's not accessible. i've been writing things in my moleskine notebook but i left it at home today

i've been using fb A LOT for communication because i don't have most people's phone numbers. also my old lips phone from middle school won't work so i can't even have a phone in my room!

but guesss what. amidst all these clouds is a bright ray of sunshine because y'all.. going to sleep without your phone next to you is so liberating.

AND THAT. IS. ALL. point made

day 209

to ease the distress that accompanies my return from a summer-long break, i've assembled a list of positive actions/things that are good about being home:

• sleeping in my own bed
• taking a shower in my own shower
• watching movies/television shows on netflix instant before i fall asleep
• doing laundry (although the process isn't enjoyable. but having clean clothes is)
• watching pretty little liars because jake saved all the episodes i missed (three! i don't care! that show is good!)
• playing with kitties and bunnies
• walking garp before 7am
• having alone time
• not having to spend money on gas, food, hotels, etc.
• continuing the lost art of reading novels/informative books/not-magazines

day 208

after spending the morning in branson playing with pot-bellied pigs, enjoying the most delicious breakfast possibly ever, and swimming in the lake,

we drove home to shreveport

(ps: h8 driving in rain!)

i was welcomed by the same uneasy feeling that's followed me home from every vacation since i was young

I HAVE NEVER LIKED COMING HOME

this could be elaborated on immensely. i could go into depth about the anxiety that dominates my every thought*

but really honestly i'd just rather play with my kitten that i had to leave behind only days after i adopted her.

i'm looking forward to establishing a routine with her. this includes eating, sleeping, playing, and loving me.

she is crawling on the keyboard and making it almost impossible to type

*in conclusion, a haiku:

been gone a long time

returned to shreveport today

feelings are heavy

day 207

hello twenty-four

(on my birthday i'm allowed to have three completely unrelated pictures in one big picture

you should probably click on it to see the full size)

day 206

dacoda and i have begun our descent (?) back to shreveport

we stopped in branson for the night, and tomorrow we're going to the titanic museum*

LUCKILY i listened to an audio book for most of the drive so it went by quickly

tomorrow is my birthday. i don't think i could possibly be less excited.

i never understood when people would tell me they didn't like their birthdays or didn't want to celebrate, but this year it makes perfect sense. i have no desire to celebrate my birthday whatsoever.

this is unusual/i don't understand

OKAY while driving, besides listening to audio books and perfecting our wisconsin accents, dacoda and i are making a to-do list, as follows...

to do:

immediate and forever

throw away pee bottle

make PSA**

go to eureka springs

hair wraps***

learn french

finish writing/develop musical****

eat at panera (check!)

play cards

drink more water

stop texting while driving

sew shorts

*you probably don't know this very interesting fact, but i've become quite the expert on the titanic. just as interesting: i still have the may 1997 issue of seventeen magazine with leonardo dicaprio on the cover

**will be awesome

***IF ANYONE DOES THIS IDEA WITHOUT ME I WILL BE SO MAD Y'ALL

****also will be awesome