day 151

my.

immune system.

is.

failing.

this is the 3rd time i've been sick since february.

today i rode in a car for 12 hours

and tonight i'm staying in a hotel in springfield, illinois.

day 150

my nights have been disastrous lately

tonight i want to stay awake all night and listen to this song on repeat:

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hahha i didn't actually WATCH the video until after i posted it. it's horrible.

here's the real version. i don't know how to post actual songs except in youtube form.

day 149

~~~tRuE eVeNt~~~

last night i was just taking out my contacts, you know, part of my normal nighttime routine, just something i've been doing every night since i was 12.

but then.......

THE UNTHINKABLE HAPPENED!

in my left eye, i only took out HALF of the lens and THE OTHER HALF WAS STUCK INSIDE!!!!!1!

i tugged and scratched at my eyeball trying to get it out (and harming my conjunctiva in the process)

and then i called my boyfriend crying, partially from the emotional trauma and partially from my eye just creating tears to flush out the harmful object

and then i googled "how to remove a broken contact lens" and tried all the *tricks* but none of them worked so i just gave up and tried to go to sleep

after struggling with the excruciating pain for a total of 43 minutes, i finally felt it move to my lower eyelid so i was able to pull it out

ANYWAY my eye REALLY REALLY hurts today and all i've been doing is complaining (but an understandable amount of complaining considering it REALLY REALLY hurts)

also today is my nephews 1st birthday and my grandma's 97th. i think.

i went to colin's party at chuck e cheezzz but i didn't win very many tickets. ...i mean i wasn't trying or anything...

also tomorrow my mom and i are embarking on a journey to wisconsin to see the rest of my family. i'm unsure of my options for getting on the internet while i'm at my grandma's sooo don't think i've given up on my 365 day project just because i haven't uploaded in a while.

i'll still be awkwardly taking pictures in a timely manner! 365 4EVER!!

day 148

found:

day 147

photo by amy scott

.... on my camera, not hers

but hers is WAY better and i want a new camera so bad.

i've been researching the different types/makes/models/prices.

whoever reads this.....?? please feel free obligated to share your opinion. what kind of camera do you use?

ALSO tomorrow is my last day at starbucks for the rest of the summer

i have every intention of returning in the fall, but who knows where my life will have led me by then

ALL I KNOW IS i won't have to wake up at 3:45am anymore for the next few months.

this is good news mostly because i have HORRIBLE sleep habits that desperately need adjusting

but i do sort of like being awake before everyone else//

day 146

pictures of cute animals to accompany one hell of a day:

aw aw aw!!

day 145

weightless,

weightless waves rush against my fingertips

and i was
drowning ants with the water from my fists,

soaking in the popsicle afternoons

forever fossilized in these pages of pictures

as the sun pretends to dry up my flaws

day 144

a haiku about my evening:

blueberry muffin,

arrested development,

going to sleep early

day 143

single serving carnival rides/

trying to find the big dipper in pieces of dust/

mercury rising/

a dance since the beginning of time/

those last few drops of alcohol were never what i needed and

never did any good anyway

day 142

today i began training for my possible future triathlon by running for a block when i took my dog for a walk this morning, getting in the pool and just standing in the water for a few minutes, and riding my bike down the street and back.

i mean, you have to take things slowly when embarking on a new fitness journey,

you really can't push your body too hard.

day 141

i'm considering starting my own series of dance workout videos

day 140

is there anything that can make you forget everything?

day 139

it's time for...

YET AGAIN....

another edition of.........

dun dun dun.........

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NEW ART IN MY ROOM

featuring TWO CUTE OWLS!~!~!~!~!

just a little treasure i picked up at goodwill for only 3.99

i know, i know, you're probably thinking one of three things:

a. I'VE ALREADY SEEN THAT EXACT PICTURE LIKE A MILLION TIMES.

b. duhhh don't you know owls are SO 2008!? get wit it girrrl and get some wolf art

c. i love this picture so much and want to come look at it in real life because even your amazing photog skillz don't do it justice.

to which i offer the following responses:

a. yes i am aware that many people own this picture or a similar picture. but can you really blame someone for mass-producing an image this adorable? no, no you can't.

b. pshyyyyytyytytttttshhhhhhhhhhhhhh

c. HEY GIRL THANKS why don't you just come over and help me figure out where to hang it and also i'll show you my 3-d chow picture and also then we can go make little owl sculptures out of pine cones while i tell you the story about how one time i had TWO baby owls in my yard!!!! and i even petted one

day 138

caney lake part 1

late upload:

i went camping last night

no interweb in the great outdoors!

+++++

as a role model to thousands of young girls across the nation, i declare that in the above picture it's just cream soda!

day 137

and then there's summer,

to hold my hand when i'm sleeping

day 136

things that i really wish were mine right now:

• a sphynx cat, possibly named matilda
• cheesecake, preferably involving chocolate or coconut or both
• some new mom shorts
• inner peace

day 135

a bit of destructive soul-searching:

i have written more than will fit on these empty walls

not to mention the alternate-universe i was led into at 4 am

i have the movie synecdoche new york to thank for that

(also mulholland drive)

m i n d f u c k

day 134

"so, let's forgive everyone, everywhere, everything

all the time, everyone, everywhere, everything"

day 133

SO i've spent a considerable amount of time (well, more than usual) listening to the radio lately, at work and in other instances. i suppose hanging out with ***musicians*** and music snobs has made me hate the radio and the catchy, seemingly shallow, everything-sounds-the-same, everything-has-to-cater-to-the-general-population songs and that made me instead want to listen to mix tapes my boyfriend has made me and also my mewithoutyou cd that i lost but then found again. ANYWAY i've determined that not everything played on the radio sucks.

so, without further ado,

the top 11 songs that i've heard on the radio, either in the backroom at work or on on air with ryan seacrest in my car yesterday that i can think of off the top of my head that are good:

11. She Will Be Loved- Maroon 5

10. Umbrella- Rihanna

9. Bad Romance- Lady Gaga

8. Single Ladies- Beyonce

7. Your Body is a Wonderland- John Mayer

6. Jumper- Third Eye Blind

5. Iris- Goo Goo Dolls

4. Beautiful- Christina Aguilera

3. Yellow- Coldplay*

2. Chasing Cars- Snow Patrol

1. Drops of Jupiter- Train

*i heard this while driving home yesterday so its on the list. but i just now remembered that my actual favorite coldplay song is fix you, and for this reason

day 132

OHHH i just drove to dallas today to drop my mom off at the airport and did a few things around this lovely metropolis. OF COURSE we went shopping at my boyf's favorite stores urban outfitters and buffalo exchange

ALSO WE STOPPED AT YUMILICIOUS (previously named yogilicious) for some tasty froyo.

i'd like to take a moment to explain how much i really love yogurt places

it all started with pinkberry in los angeles (i think).... i was hooked immediately but then i started discovering them in every city! berrypop in houston! yumilicious in dallas! pinkberries everywhere! AND last summer i discovered the greatest yogurt place of all: CANTALOOP (los angeles, so far away from me right now)

the kinds where you can help yourself to any flavor and then they weigh it are the best. you get as much or as little as you want AND the employees don't judge you if you're getting weird flavors paired together, like pina colada and cake batter!

flavors that are good:

pomegranate

pina colada

cookies and cream

cheesecake

peanut butter

things i love to get on my frozen yogurt include but are not limited to:

mochi MMMMM

captain crunch and/or fruity pebbles (or similar cereal)

peanut butter chips

white chocolate chips

sometimes raspberries

and here is a picture, taken on august 31, 2009 after the fun. concert at spaceland in silverlake

of a typical yogurt surprise that makes me hungry just looking at it (SIX prepositions in that sentence!):

food photography, new hobby, remember?

AND THIS CONCLUDES MY SHORT BUT MEANINGFUL REVIEW OF THE GENERAL TOPIC OF FROZEN YOGURT

day 131

i don't know

whether it was

only you

or

me and you

or

whatever's new

but i do know that

there are signs on trees

that say

"today we wear our rings until there are ridges in our bones"

and

"everyone always comes back"

but that was when

the moon was full and

the cracks weren't as noticeable,

anyway

day 130

i had every intention of going camping with dacoda tonight

but this morning at work I FELT LIKE I WAS GOING TO DIE or at least lose consciousness

i think i'm going to die every day but i rarely feel like i'm going to die.

[[i'm simply constantly aware that i (or anyone i know) can die at any moment, thus live my life in a neverending fear of the unknown]]

so my mom had to pick me up from work early so i wouldn't pass out while driving on my way home (a very likely occurence given the circumstances)

then i took a very long nap and didn't do much of anything,

you know, to lessen the chances of me dying

day 129

today while i was trying to take a SERIOUS picture of me being SERIOUS, my cute cat osiris kept acting silly and making me laugh, nudging me with his cute little alien-shaped head and doing flips on my owl table until i gave up and petted him instead

day 128

ohhh je suis trés désolé for the late upload but i went to sleep immediately after ~~ONE NIGHT IN PARIS~~

just a wild time with spreadable cheese, crepes, petit fours, "je m'appelle..." tags, some edith piaf playing on the stereo, dancing, party pix, and paris je t'aime.

beaucoup d'amusement!

next party theme: nifty fifties

day 127

hi

i'm thinking about doing a week-long experiment in being vegan.

(NOT THIS WEEK though because tomorrow is ~~ONE NIGHT IN PARIS~~ and i need to eat lotssss of brie cheese and petit fours DUH)

sometimes i just feel really gross/guilty after eating dairy products, even though cheese is delicious, ice cream is delicious, milk is alright but chocolate milk is delicious and i would miss them terribly if i gave them up forever. not to mention could basically never go out to eat in the city of shreveport.

BUT

i've been doing my research. i think a week would do me (and the animals) some good.

day 126

i just want to put commas everywhere and never sleep

day 125

day 124

coughing all night ---------->>>> NO SLEEP FOR THIS GIRL

looks like i'll just be forced to watch a few episodes of skins. does anyone else watch that show?

*everyone shakes their head no because its really horrible*

WELL i only have 4 episodes left. the side effects: sometimes, the voice in my head has a british accent.

day 123

while pondering my life and the frivolousness of it up to this point (okay, arguable).... i've been making a short list of jobs that i'd perhaps like to have.

neat-o jobs that are cool AKA potential careers:

• cake photographer (duh)
• president of the chip of the month club
• starbucks photographer (you know, for display signs, the perfectly placed scone in focus with a blurred mug of coffee in the background, or the few dark chocolate curls perfectly arranged as if carelessly spilled while sprinkling them)
• babysitter for a monkey/ape/anything cute
• cheese taster*
• writer of a successful music blog
• star of an animal planet show
• clown (my first aspiration)
• sign language translator (would require knowing sign language, on my list of eventual goals)
• something involving the paranormal
• light or sound designer for a ridiculously large theatrical experience
• shoe designer (would be helpful if i had kept the pages and pages of shoes i drew in 6th grade)

that's really all i can think of for now.

wish me luck in my ambitions, y'all**

*coincidentally about to go make some mac and chzzz

**just looked up the correct placement of the apostrophe in "y'all"

day 122

when i was younger, i was sure i'd cracked my skull while doing flips on my parents' bed, and in a panicked voice i asked my doctor father if this was even possible.

his response sent me into a fit of despair, bawling beyond consolation, because certainly i had just cracked my skull and would die very soon at the age of ten.

day 121

"regarding matters of the heart, i have no advice that will do any good"