day 48

fun. concert

i believe on this night i experienced the entire range of possible emotions:

an overwhelming feeling of sadness and loss accompanied with an incredible feeling of belonging and peace

i saw my ex-boyfriend there, which was strange to say the least. i haven't seen/heard from/heard about him in around 8 months and though i had been warned (by multiple people fucckkk) that he would be there, i thought the venue was big enough that i wouldn't run into him/make things weird.

for those of you who don't know my personal history, and i'm under the impression that a considerable amount of people who read this don't, chris cut off all contact with me (understandably so) shortly after we broke up.

so after accidentally glancing in his direction a few times and pretending not to see him, i waved at him. uncomfortable, i'd say, for two people who spent three years together (term used loosely) but at least someone i considered my best friend and at times only friend, so these feelings are understandable i suppose.

i'm a thinker. it's a curse. i am overwhelmed by this world always.

ANYWAY, fun. was amazing as usual.

although having post-show conversations with the band would be considerably better if i wasn't the most socially awkward human being on the planet.

pixxx:

i tried to find a sweet vid of take your time coming home, my fave fun. song but i couldn't find one that accurately conveyed the energy i feel when i hear it

so just see them live asap and get itt yall